Busy makes me happy...

Mood: ALT + 058 + ALT + 041 (New project to make me happy.)

Keeping myself busy makes me happy. It boosts my morale and keeps the creative juices flowing. Right now, I need to finish my thesis proposal. I just finished making a study layout for this web stint for a certian medical society. I'm glad I was able to think of something. Since yesterday, I couldn't get my mind to organize the content on my head. But that usually happens on the first day of a new project. And the only way to get my act straightend up is for me to pause and take a nap. and the moment i wake up, I get to rejuvinate the creative juices. so i finished the design in a blue-red-black motif. It follows the design they did for their brochure. I just wanted to make some uniformity (even just in color) kasi sayang naman yung brochures nila.

so anyway, where are my rants? i guess you're expecting that each time i post, you'd read some of my rants of the days gone passed. hmmm... let's see... oh, i know. One of my subjects is now requiring us to read Harry Potter. This is so gonna break my promise of not reading that book. FLASHBACK: about 5 years ago, I made a promise never to read any of the books in the HP series. 'coz there's this part of me who really wants to be a non-conformist, plus the fact that I really think that HP is overrated. BACK TO THE PRESENT: now, my prof will have to make me break my promise. well, i do have a choice... get a grade of '5' for the reaction paper about it. arghhhh! i better start reading that freaking book.

oi oi oi, die-hard HP fans, for your violent reactions, email me at i_dont_care_about_harry_potter@who_the_heck_cares.com

lousy keyboard! My keyboard is going crazy! the A's and the S's and sometimes the D's get doubled when I type. It's kinda erratic and utterly annoying. And now I have to freakingly bring my laptop to Ynzal in QC and leave it day for 2 days! What the heck are they thinking? I also need my PC for work and study you know... I wish there was an easier and faster solution. Hoping that there was really an Apple care center here in the Phils so that I wouldn't have to transact with half-baked Apple resellers and distributors. haayyyy...




Thought Chain: have i told you before what HP stands for with my friends? There was this one time that my friend had this tabloid at the back seat of his car. So we read it and it said "HP daw si..." blah blah blah. Apparently, HP stood for Happy Pekpek. Sorry, i think the people who read my blog are old enough for censorship. Anyway, Aimee one time started blabbing about her interview with HP while we were in SBC katips. She jokingly blurted out "I have an interview with HP... with Happy Pekpek".There was this couple (i think they're from ADMU) sitting next to us on the same table. and the guy was trying to control his laughter while the girl was kinda shocked. They transferred seats the time the table behind us got vacated. hahaha.

13 Things I need in my Life

Mood: ALT + (Switch in... Switch on.)

13 : faith, not superstition
12 : literature, poetry, art
11 : generosity, not I
10 : respect for space, respect of time
09 : peace... of mind
08 : forgiveness, less retribution
07 : patience is a virtue which I patiently achieve
06 : discipline, not on whim
05 : health in body, health of mind
04 : smiles
03 : renewed passion
02 : (un)hopelessness
01 : you.




Thought chain: let me tell you of a poem, "the emperor's new sonnet" by jose garcia villa as follows:

:beautiful, isn't it?

Black on Valentine's Day

Mood: ALT + 058 + ALT + 124 (Not bitter. Not ecstatic either. hehe)

No, i'm not one of those guys who wear black on Valentine's Day for protest of the celebration! and no, i'm not bitter. hahaha. well, i try not to be. mwehehehe. so why am i wearin black? 'coz it's the first shirt i chanced upon the pile of clothes returned from the laundromat. Besides, I wasn't in the mood to iron any of my clothes today. So I decided to wear something low maintenance:



Anyway, it's UP Fair week. And I'm planning to either join my friends today before my badminton game or on thursday after my badminton fame. Oh yeah, I'm celebrating Valentines in the court. Weehee! hahaha. I'll be seeing tonette, toteng, wuwie, and efren later. Hmmmm... I kinda feel my tummy rumbling. need something to eat...




Thought Chain: Last year, I bought flowers for my mom and 2 sisters and delivered them directly to their offices in makati. Well, too bad I can't do that again this year. Not that very liquid. hehehe.

Hanep na bus!

Mood: ALT + 033 (!Nice!)

I went back to Katipunan this morning from Laguna. I rode a bus that takes me directly from Laguna to Kamuning. I was surprised to see their new ticketing system.



The guy who gave out tickets used a handheld device linked up to a portable thermal printer. Cool! no more bunch of tickets that clutter one's bag. I'm not yet sure if it can be accepted as a purchase receipt. But it does have the TIN printed on the ticket, so I guess maybe it can be honored for reimbursements and stuff. But i guess the nicest part of this is that we can see technology starting to take shape for regular day to day activities for the benefit of all individuals.

I wonder when the time will come that cashless shopping would be used everywhere, or when GPRS would be cheap and fast for wireless internet anywhere. I guess when that time comes, more people would benefit to the world of cyberspace (and PORN, hahaha).



Thought chain: I was thinking before of a good info service idea through text messaging: how about an MRT or LRT service that can be texted to query if the previous train just left, how many minutes before the next, and if the station can still be reached for the last trip. Para naman 'di mo kailangang kumaripas ng takbo, only to find out that the train just left. ok rin sigurong malaman yung station stats like volume of passengers, or get alerts if repairs are being done or such.

They say once you're on a Mac, you'll never go back.

Mood: ALT + 059 + ALT + 041 (How can I afford to neglect my baby?)

I went home to Laguna awhile ago after I stayed overnight at Tots and Tonette's place with Wuwie. When I got home here in the province, I almost instantly wanted to get online. So i decided to just turn on the desktop PC infront of me in my room (instead of unpacking delta from my bag and hooking her up to the dsl modem) to check my mail. Later, I found myself wanting to write a blog. In the middle of logging on, I felt bad that I was about to write my blog on a Windows machine. Ever since I got Delta, I've always written my blogs from a Mac PC. So I turned off the desktop, and decided to write my blog on my baby Delta. So here I am writing it. :D

So what happend with our overnight thingee? well, we discussed issues (aka chismis) about friends and foes. hehehe. There's nothing like a night cap of gossip. bwahahaha. we also watched Brokeback Mountain earlier that night. It was kinda boring at first. But i had to admit that the movie progressed to be nice in the end. And it was actually touching. Just be sure to be openminded when you watch the movie. And be sure to try not to get bored on the early parts of the movie. Oh, and btw, they seem to have a problem with enunciating their words, so be sure to get ready with your lip reading skills. Oh wait, this isn't applicable with Heath Ledger as he keeps a tight open with his mouth when he talks (add to that the lack of enunciating). But I guess they were trying to emulate the western cowboy accent.

So what am I doing right now in Laguna? oh well, nothing special. Just had dinner a while ago with the family, and now surfing the net while doing my blog. hmmm... I think I want ripe mangoes...




Thought Chain: Now I've realized how much I love my Baby Delta. I think I'm really sticking to a Mac. Well, except for a few moments when I wanna play games on a Windows PC. hehe. I wonder when Apple will be realeasing a 12" widescreen mactel iBook? Although I dont have the cash to buy one, I'd certainly wanna see it dual booted with windows. But i'll probably use OS X more often that Windows in such a case.

sadness almost took me away

Mood: ALT + 000 (There's this void in my heart. and it aches.)

i decided to check the course checklist to find out my deficiencies. Only to find out that I was taking a subject that was redundant with another subject i took before. i felt like i wasted 3 units of my time. but on the other hand, i was pretty much enjoying the subject. It would certainly be futile to drop the subject at this time. It wouldn't help at all. so might as well continue on with it, and work harder.

what dawned to me was that I was really old in this university. I'll be 25 next year. i'll be graduating my undergraduate course at the age of 25. Talk about MAJOR achievement... NOT! I called my mom and heard her disappointment in her voice even though she didn't have to say so. I felt sad. all i could think of was time wasted and my almost wasted life. I'm now in the middle of my last class of the day and all I felt was crying in the middle of writing this blog.

I can't concentrate much with the lesson. It's a good thing my professor gave copies of handouts for today's discussion. I cant afford to allow myself to lose my composure. It wouldn't be right. But part of me really wants to head home and allow myself to let out my grief... Of my dying youth... of my lost opportunities... of my dying hope.

It's 5:57pm in my watch. No wifi in class, can't send this blog right now. But this is all that i can do to keep me from losing myself. I can hardly make a smile. seems so painful to smile. and what's harder is holding back the sadness in my eyes... waiting to wash away the grief in my heart.




Thought chain: my mom sent me a text message. She said "You know how much i love you". And I do. but sometimes, you can't help to feel so down and out.

trampled hopes... no, seriously.

Mood: ALT + 058 + ALT + 040 (it's not supposed to be like this)

"A mother wakes up in the morning, sees no food to feed her son, and no money in her pocket except for a few coins enough for fare. She wakes her son and invites him for a long walk to a place where they can find some hope of a better life. This place is about a few kilometers away, but she'd rather walk the distance with her son to spend some quality time with him (and to save the few last coins in her pocket for atleast a piece of pandesal or two for their lunch). As they arrive to their place of hope, they see multitudes of people waiting for the same thing. they queue in: they squeeze, brawl and join the anticipation to have the chance of being in front of the crowd. a scream! panic breaks lose! the mother tries all her best to shelter her child from the stampede. the crowd loses control, and people run from all directions. a few minutes later: food everywhere, shoes and slippers scattered in the area, bodies bruised and hurt, and the child... frantically losing hope. crying in vain to wake up his mother lying on the street -- but she won't."

i woke up this morning hearing the news of how 61 people died from a stampede. they just wanted to get tickets for a noontime show's anniversary. all they wanted was to have that ticket of hope of entering the venue: to get the chance, though slim, of winning any of the prizes they had at stake. but sadly, 61 individuals lost their lives, and 61 families mourn for their loss, together with their hope for a better life and a brighter future.

life shouldn't be like this. it's just not supposed to be like this. hope is not supposed to be staked at a ticket in exchange for one's life. it's just not right.

... "the child had nothing to begin with, but now he's a boy with seemingly nothing more to lose." who will help him?




Thought chain: i was inspired to write you this story from the news of The Philippine Daily Inquirer which you can find here. The background of the story of the boy is purely fictional. But the boy who lost his mom in the stampede is ALL TRUE. my heart cries for him.